Wait…what’s wrong. Something’s gone wrong! This was suppose to solve the mess that had become my life. I’d just wanted to erase everything. But what’s happening!
I’d made such precise plans. I figured no one would care. I would simply cease to be by the time the gun was silent and its smoke drifted away. But something is wrong. What’s going on! I’m still here! I ‘m trying to move, to turn over but nothing’s happening!Someone’s running down the hall… knocking on the door. It’s kicked in and she’s standing there. Just standing and staring at the gore of what had once been the left side of my head; a deep wail that rises to a hysterical high pitch scream fills the room.
The endless beeping of monitors. Humid air filled with the stench of urine and old bodies. It’s not suppose to be like this! “No brain activity…they refuse to pull the plug…an only child…” Help me. Please someone help me!
Dear God what have I done. I’ve taken myself to hell.