I, like so many have lived in the state of denial most of my years,
always putting on a happy face and continually stifling my tears.
In fact, when I was a child I made such a good impression,
smiling all the time, never showing an unpleasant expression.
Through the years, I lost my identity by putting my feelings on hold!
I focused on making others happy denying the thoughts I own.
Afraid of any unpleasantness inside, I never got to know me,
and, giving others happiness was all that I could ever see.
Finally in my senior years I’m learning about me,
and, know that only God, my creator, can set me free.
For with God given courage I not only can learn who I am,
but, I can use my newly found talents to fit into His plan.
If only I would have known that it was God who molded me so uniquely!
I am not a mistake, and, He wants me to stay true to the real me.
With that understanding my life would not have been wasted,
and, I could have avoided all those lost years and tears that I tasted.