I can barely recall a time that I was not a Christian. I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior into my life as a five year old girl. It happened on a Sunday night in the church I attended. The event has focused my life for my entire life. I remember so vividly the feeling: although I was very young and knew very little, if any, doctrine-I certainly knew the beating in my heart, calling me. I did not ignore it-I ran to the altar of my church and prayed for Christ to come into my heart.
Becoming a Christian at a young age can be difficult, but for me, it has been a constant reminder of the love God has for me and the sacrifice of Christ. I have not been perfect and there have been many trials throughout my life and I have always made it through. The one verse that always is with me is Romans 8:28. No matter what I go through in this life, nothing can ever separate me from the love of God. Nothing! No matter how trying, how impossible life can seem at times, God is always there watching over me and loving me.
As a young adult, I often forgot this from time to time. The older I become, the more I know this and begin to understand it. God is in control-everything happens in life for a reason. We are all instruments of choice, however, and I have often been faced head on with mistakes I have made-and the only way to deal with them-is to recognize them, confess them, and ask for forgiveness and move on with God’s grace.
But I never have to be born again. Since I was five, I was saved and will always be saved. That constant has protected me. My faith has seen me through deaths of close friends and family members. I often wonder how people make it through tragedy without the love of our Heavenly Father. I just cannot ever understand how. Only the love of God has seen me through some of the trials in life-without being able to converse with him on a daily basis, I do not know how I would make it through this world-where evil and hate are so predominant.
My faith has brought me happy times and blessings as well. Because of being raised in a Christian home, I was able to grow up safe and secure. This is the kind of life I most want to provide for my children. I have been blessed with a wonderful, loving husband who also accepted Christ as a young child. Together, we have a natural and common basis for rearing our children. I was blessed to lead my son to the Lord the day before my 40th birthday in 20076. What an incredible 40th birthday gift! Only God has that kind of timing and I have seen it in my life over and over again.
Because of faith, I have seen opinions of experts refuted time and time again. For example, I am a Type 2 Diabetic. I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes while pregnant with my first child and after birth, it never went away. It just continued on as Type 2. Because of this diagnosis, and the fact that I was older and it was discovered that I only had one ovary, it seemed a miracle that I had a healthy first child. I was told that is was very unlikely that I would ever have another baby.
I accepted that and moved on with my life. But I did pray for another child-in fact, I prayed for a daughter. And then I let it go and moved on, enjoying the child that I had-the blessing already bestowed. I began writing and publishing some things and being the best wife, mother and Christian I could possibly be.
So, as it goes when it is God versus experts, God is Bigger. I unexpectedly became pregnant in 2006, and though the pregnancy was tricky with full-blown diabetes, I delivered the most wonderful and beautiful daughter in May of 2007. I was 39.
I am so blessed to be a life-long Christian. My Christian life has brought me many friends. Often others who are not true Christians cannot understand why I am so positive most of the time. Oh, I have bad days-and this has been an especially trying year. Yet, I cannot stay down long-there is too much love from God and visible blessings every single hour to do that.
Until the day I die, I will be that five year old girl every day on some level, running as fast as my legs can take me-just to talk to God and to Christ. There is no one like the Heavenly Father to comfort and love you and there is no closer friend that Jesus Christ-you are never alone, and as Romans 8:28 states, nothing-not even death-can separate you from the love of God. Ever.