A month or so ago, I decided to share my personal struggle with weight loss and healthy living. Now it’s time to share again. Sadly, there is nothing ground breaking to share. Yes, I have done fairly well. I stuck to my goals most of the time. I lost about twenty pounds (I think, because I don’t weigh myself, it’s way too depressing). Then I gained back about ten. This is how it goes with most overweight women. It’s an uphill battle and we are unprepared for the climb. That’s OK, we just have to put on our hiking boots and keep trying. I know that I have it in me to do this. Every day, I read, research and write on the subject of healthy living. I know all the facts and figures about losing weight and keeping it off. I just don’t follow my own advice.
Well, ladies and gentlemen, once again, I find myself vowing, “this will be the last time I start over”. I know it’s not about going on a diet. It’s about changing your diet and lifestyle permanently. It’s about being healthy, not super model thin. It’s about making good choices at least 80% of the time. It’s about eating until you are only 80% full, like the people of Okinawa in the blue zones. It’s about eating lots of colorful, healthy food so there is no room for the junk. Sometimes it’s about giving yourself a pat on the back and forgiving yourself for not being “perfect”. I know exactly what I need to do. Once again, I’m just not doing it. Really, I just need to follow my own advice, as I have said, many times before.
It’s not just about weight loss and healthy living either. Self image plays a huge role. Like many women my age, I have been through a lot of struggles. I have been traumatized, used and abused. On a daily basis, I have been bombarded with unrealistic media images of how a woman is supposed to look. All this has impacted my sense of self esteem and well being to a point where it becomes another obstacle I must conquer. So many of the people I have been in relationships with have had unrealistic expectations of how women should look and act, that I have come to expect it. Luckily, I have found someone who truly does appreciate me for who I am. He looks past my physical appearance and finds me beautiful. That makes it easier to reach my goals.
I’m surrounded by people I love and who love me. That should help this time. I have also made another change. I’ve been talking to the people in my life about this. We know there is strength in numbers. It’s hard to be healthy and stay on track when the people around you are eating all that junk. It’s hard to go for a walk when everyone else is still laying in bed. Plus, naturally, I want them to be healthy too. So, here I go again. The difference? Now I have plenty of back up. Everyone in my house is making healthy changes. Several people in my outer circle are making healthy changes. I feel good about this time. I already have a ten pound start. Now, I just have to practice what I preach and take my own advice. Again and again if needed, until I get it right. I will do it. I have faith in me.