The night is dark.
A chill is in the air.
The ground is damp,
I find a dry spot and start clouding the air around me.
Hugging me with my comfort blanket.
Shielding myself from the world.
It’s quiet, a little too quiet.
Or is it my blanket, Who knows?
I look up at the sky, and it’s filled with stars.
Wow! it’s an exquisite view.
Hey, there is my star group.
That is so cool.
Where ever I am,
I can count on my star group to be where ever I stand.
Sparkling high above me, the view is grand.
But some bright light above me is a little to bright, it’s blinding.
I shift to see the moon is full and set in its place,
Towering over me, shadowing
Under its rays, as they penetrate through my face.
Damn wsup, it’s so freaking bright, it’s blinding me,
It’s overwhelming, and I can’t concentrate.
I feel the blood inside racing and boiling in my veins.
Oh damn, am I tripping.
Cause my head is flipping.
Projections in my head are skipping, skipping and skipping.
What’s happening? It’s like images in my head are ripping, Purging my brain.
Drilling, surging, streaming. It’s causing me too much pain.
It’s hopeless, I can’t fight.
So I give into the light.
Now let’s see what I have to gain.
As I relax and get collected,
Dark images in my head are being projected.
I’m hovering over this world and set on an oasis
It’s dark with a line of mirrors hovering over their places.
Every reflection holds my face.
I walk toward one of it’s place.
As I get closer, the heart is racing, the blood is boiling.
It’s like some force is taking over me.
Adjusting my face to see.
I’m forced to stare at my reflection.
Eyes staring at each other not losing a section.
When I look in the mirror, I see myself.
What do I see,
I see me,
But who is me.
Can some one help me, I don’t know who I be.
As I stare into the image in the mirror.
It stares back at me.
Eying each other, wait hold on, what’s that,
As I move in for a closer look.
And through the eyes on the other side.
I see images it was like a burst of light.
I stare deeper. as I focus the walls start getting steeper,
Some thing is happening and my body is getting stiffer.
Out of body transmission,
I am being carried away to another vision,
As I clear through the cloud of smoke, I balance and take position.
And what I see is quite a transition.
I see a life with a lot of hurt and hatred, didn’t care about the world and who
was in it,
Some times there were nights that one would think I was possessed by demons.
Parading up and down the street for no reason,
A lost soul going on a head on collision with a ghost train.
Countless days and nights flying sniffing on cocaine.
I did it all just to mask the pain.
instead it got all gloomy with lots of nights in the rain,
I was losing my sanity, I was going insane.
All cause my heart was in pain.
Never have I felt so betrayed.
I think I died on that day.
And a new character came to play.
it was said, It was best to stay out of his way.
Provoking and dodging the police in so many ways.
Countless acts of violence I see on display.
Sleeping with a different woman each night of the day,
Taking them in rage, some one had to pay.
Love them and leave them, is what I use to say.
A crazy Spanish devil, was who I displayed.
There were many nights that I wished I would just die ,
Because I didn’t have the balls to take my own life,
I cursed God and to him I will not be alive ,
Oh my God, some times life isn’t fair.
Some times it hits you blow after blow and I am very aware.
But just know, I ain’t never scared.
Some times God, not to disrespect you, but some times,
I just thought that you didn’t care.
But I am not mad, it’s cool.
I know life isn’t fair.
Some times I wish you would acknowledge me,
But do you even know that I am there.
You never answer me. You just don’t care.
Turning my back on him and going into the darker light.
And it didn’t pay off cause I am still fighting for my life.
But then time has a way of healing all wounds.
My eyes opened up and I realized that I was such a fool.
My life is going to change, I am going to be true.
God, I get down on my knees and send a prayer to you.
Our father in heaven,
May your name be honored,
May your kingdom come,
May what you want be done on earth as it is done in heaven,
Give us today our daily bread.
Forgive us our sins.
Just as also we would forgive those who have sinned against us,
Keep us from falling into sin when we are tempted.
Save us from the evil one,.
Dear father. I would like to take this opportunity to thank you,
My life was in the dark, and now I am in the light.
Chaotic scenes I was involved with night after night,
And you showed me the grass is greener on the other side,
Now I know I have been a sinner.
Shine upon me and I promise my life will change for you are my keeper,
I dedicate a part of my life into touching people lives.
Doing my part to thank you for guiding me into the light.
The image just disappears.
Oh my God it’s me and I am still here.
And there is my star group .Wow that was so weird.
Images in my head so clear.
And it was only me I had to fear.
Orale, what was in this spiff.
Flashing painful images of me going through grief.
Let me put out this spiff.
Because it’s making me trip.
Showing me images I don’t want to see.
Those were some hectic days.
I can not believe how I lost myself in such a way.
But it’s OK.
Cause that experience made me stronger and smarter and created
the man you see today…..
Some times life seems to amaze me.
It’s a roller coaster ride playing out our destiny.
And can be any thing out of the ordinary.
Unexpected events that can just make you, and in some cases even break you.
But don’t be the fool.
Fight through your battles and every thing would be cool.
Deal with your demons and take no bull.
The reason I tell you, because I been through.
(Much Love And Respect)
The night is dark.