During the week even though I get to talk to Troy online I miss him even if it is just the two of us watching something together there is something that is there that I feel every time I am with him. I miss watching him and his comical faces. I find myself thinking about his smile whenever I am not with him.
I miss life without the asthma although yes it has matured me in ways, helped me see things I didn’t see before, and helped me understand different people and what they go through I do miss some of the other things of my life before. Although I still am able to do a lot of things I have more limitations than I use to when I was younger and my asthma wasn’t as bad.
I don’t miss being younger even as a child or teenager although there has been ups and downs through all my life I know that through it all I’ve become a stronger person and wouldn’t really change those things even the harder times. There are times I miss certain people that use to be in my life but realize that sometimes one has to let go or have certain people leave there lives in order to grow more.
I miss some of the things I’ve lost along the way especially things that are not so easy to replace things that have no real money worth such as writing, pictures, and memories. I am grateful every day for so many things that anything that I might miss doesn’t seem as bad especially with having Troy in my life.