“God Calling” today bids me to look away from the sordidness and lack of beauty and perfection in myself and others and to focus on Jesus. It tells me that the more I focus on Him and the more I see of and in Him, the more I will become like Him. The message tells me that when I look away from that lack and sordidness, I’ll be able in faith to see all that I desire in Him. Everything we need and desire is in Him.
I was drawn to the passage in 1 Corinthians 13:12 where it says that now we only see a poor reflection like in the mirror but then we’ll see face to face. Now we only know in part, but then we’ll know fully even as we are fully known (by Him). Interestingly, this passage is in the “Love Chapter”. God is love and Jesus is the embodiment of that love.
I’m reminded of the sinful woman (Luke 7:44) who wept at Jesus’ feet. Perhaps when she looked at Him, she saw for the first time in a long time, or maybe even the first time ever, real and pure love. When I read this chapter, I can see the woman-obviously aware and maybe even proud of whom & what she was; of the life she’d been living. That’s the pretty “cling-on” picture that we stick over the mirror when we don’t want to see the real reflection. She obviously was a prostitute selling or trading favors; compromising the beauty of purity with the sordidness of illicit sex. We are all prostitutes-in spirit-at one time or another, in some form or another. We compromise the beauty of the purity of spirit that God created us to live in. We “sell” ourselves to things like pride through envy and covetousness. We prostitute ourselves to debt, selling ourselves into slavery to the “keep up with the Joneses” syndrome. We tell ourselves we have a “right” to be bitter or angry and live in unforgiveness and hatred. We become prostitutes to compromise, by seeking approval and popularity, out of fear of rejection or abandonment. We tell ourselves things like, “Just this once won’t hurt anything” or we remain silent when we should speak up. We compromise truth and the integrity of the Spirit when we do these things.
Remember Adam and Eve were naked before they fell; they were naked and not ashamed. The nakedness, in sprit represents no need to hide or cover up anything. They didn’t have anything to hide from anyone; not even themselves. I can see the pretty “cling-on” labels this sinful woman may have put on her mirror. Perhaps, “Single and loving every minute of it” was one of them. That would cover up the real one that read, “Wounded and afraid of being vulnerable and being hurt again.” Some of mine over the years have been “life of the party, independent, tough girl, always on the go, and one of my favorites, “ice princess.” The real “reflection” said, “afraid of rejection, don’t want to be hurt again, wounded, afraid to have time to think about it(aka) denial, broken hearted, low or no self-esteem, etc. “
I believe we see three “facets” of reflection when we come face to face with Jesus. First, we begin to see clearly what our real reflections look like. That’s also called the conviction of the Holy Spirit. Then we see clearly what love, real love looks like. We have a full body portrait of “naked and unashamed” love when we look at our crucified savior’s life and His death on the cross. It’s very easy to understand why the woman wept at His feet. I’ve known Him all of my life. I’ve walked with Him in close, personal and intimate relationship – real relationship, for twenty years now. I’m still weeping, and I think I’ll be at His feet and weeping even on resurrection day, amazing as His love is. In Him, I saw a parent that wasn’t abusive; a man who loved me and wanted me and mot just my body. I saw a friend who wouldn’t betray me; a husband who would provide the physical and emotional support I needed. I saw a husband and father who wouldn’t abandon our family to drugs or cheat with other lovers.
Finally, I saw a child who was love and cared for unconditionally. I saw a mother who could fight to overcome the generational curses and change our family legacy to one of love in God and of God. In Him I see peace, healing, freedom, truth, kindness, real joy and strength and courage. In Jesus, I see mountains moving, even if it’s one teaspoon at a time. Every time I look at Jesus I see a new life, and renewed life within. That’s why it’s so important to stay focused on Him through adversity. He sees the overcomer in us. He sees us defeating the addiction, the dysfunction, the despair. He sees the resurrected original and eternal creation in us; God in us. He sees the love in us. His prayer in Gethsemane was that we could and would see it. (John 17) That makes me so glad that I’m fully known by Him. I sure never saw some of the good things in me that He has.