I was ready to get pregnant.
I have been married for 6 years now and have no children. I do have one adult stepson whom I love very much. I cannot have kids because I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome which is a disease of the ovaries. I get cysts on my ovaries that keeps me from getting pregnant.
Back when I was 19 years old, before my husband and I were married, I threw away my birth control pills and announced that I was ready to have a baby. My husband, boyfriend at the time, was very happy as he wanted more kids. So we tried and tried and tried and it didn’t happen. We thought it was him so we bought foods to increase his sperm count. That didn’t work either.
I didn’t have any health insurance at the time so I couldn’t get checked. We decided to just keep trying and hope for the best. Years went by and still no baby. I was disappointed every time I got my menstrual cycle. I cried my eyes out every month it came. I knew there had to be something wrong with me.
Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome
I finally got health insurance and went and got checked. I found out I had Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and I was devastated. My gynecologist told me not to worry and put me on medication that was supposed to help me get pregnant. She also told me to keep track of my ovulation and basal body temperature. Which I did, every month. I still didn’t get pregnant.
My husband and I finally got married and we decided to try another medication that my health insurance wouldn’t cover. It was going to cost us $40 a month but we decided it was worth it. I was on it for two months and it messed up my cycle really bad. So bad that I thought I was pregnant once and was disappointed when I found out I wasn’t.
Happy and Content
After so many years of trying, I decided to give up and get over it. I don’t even want a baby now. Probably because I have social anxiety disorder and Bipolar disorder and I don’t think I could handle children. After so many years of wanting a family and I realized I already have a great family, my husband, my parents, my mother-n-law, my stepson, my sister and her family. I don’t need anymore than that. I am happy and content with what I have.
Don’t Give Up
I do have to say though, for those who are trying to get pregnant and suffer from Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, don’t give up like I did. It just wasn’t meant to be for me but it can still happen for you. Try the medications longer than I did and do what your doctor says and it will happen if you want it bad enough. I guess I didn’t want it bad enough.