Autumn and solitude always arrive together
between riddles and excuses happy endings run away forever
Sour memories made me skillful in forgetting
but it might take a thousand years to realize
you weren’t meant to save me.
I can’t help it if I’d rather forget you at all
you cross the line in my mind
you cross the line every time
it’s easier to walk away from the image of the girl
left with the empty hands, the broken dreams
let’s make believe we’re complete strangers
and the world is just beginning right now.
Right before I met you I thought I’d never hurt again
right before I kissed you I thought I’d never feel at all
Right before I held your hand, I promised not to be a fool.
Come up with a prettier mistake this time, for my own sake.
I see you tracing back your steps, what is it that you’re looking for?
Struggling to hold on to ghosts of trust and honesty,
don’t you know it’s a bad habit, begging to fall in love?
Please don’t make me join this parade
of feelings, apologies, confusion,
I’m the kind of person who smiles when things go wrong
look under my sleeves / my wounds aren’t hiding there
dissillusion sings behind this mask of stone
leave a note behind the door
make me understand why it’s ok to fall.
Can’t you see we’re the ones to blame?
keep erasing one by one the lines of this poem
and watch as I vanish with them from your skin
but don’t try to glue me back together
you never noticed the world ended in the right side of your bed.
I turned around to run back to you
but wasn’t brave enough…
You’re my sweetest good bye
you’re my favorite lie
you’re my November rain.